Show that you care.

I don't want to see you walk away from me.

2012-01-29T01:09:00.002+08:00

So emotional.
So full of thoughts, so full of feelings, so full of I have-no-idea-whats.
Will you last?
Will you stay?
Will you see me dead?
You say hate negative people?
As I, but sometimes I can't help but feel this way,
at times I can't control how I feel.
I need to pen this down or I will have insomnia.
You're on the phone but you won't reply me,
I know I have lost my chance by blabbering too much.
But fuck that.
Do not become the pathetic fool I once was.
The past is something I wish to forget and never have.
My existence is to bring as much happiness as I can to people that never felt that there was hope in their lives.
I want to make a difference and be someone who is important and worth their while.
So am I worth your while ?
Or I just have bad karma;)?
I really can't decide.
HehXD

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

2012-01-15T04:44:00.003+08:00

Just realised I don't have any LOL
Well I hope 2012 is going to be a good year.
Sincerely,
I do hope.
Looking back at how I've been...
I have really done many foolish things.
Jumping quick into situations without finding out the cost of the fall..
Said many things that I regret but at the same time, I don't regret them.
Cause I have learnt, what and what not to say.
Tact , they call it.
But I choose not to be tactful as schools the only place where you can say whatever you want cause
yeah damn right its the final year I hope it gets through you're thick skulls that you're not going to
meet another person like me to tell you what you really should do instead of a backstabbing bitch
where you can meet everywhere you go ain't it right? ;)
And also...Talking about things..
I know that it doesn't show but I'm not as childish as I seem to be -.-
Freak you like seriously cause that proves you don't know me well enough.

2012 Resolutions:
1) To know what love is really about
2)TO set realistic goals;)
3)To really enjoy my life:D
4)Learn to balance the shit I have in my life.
5)Always do my best.

Lastly..
6) To be happy always.

Thats all for now!
Really look forward to a better tomorrow.

Religion

2012-01-15T03:37:00.001+08:00

His doing it right ;)
Take some time to see this. REALLY WORTH IT.

Worth My Time

2012-01-07T00:51:00.002+08:00

Are you really worth my time?
Are you really worth the effort?
Why didn't you keep your promise?
Why didn't you take the time?
Why?
Was it all really worth the tears?
Was it?

This song gives me musical frisson *shivers*

Strong

2011-12-30T20:42:00.004+08:00

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2079098/Ben-Breedlove-YouTube-Video-Teenager-shares-near-death-experiences-dies.html
This guy...he is really what you call strong.

Unlike the people nowadays, so easily upset, so easily saying they are strong.
Really? Do you really feel that you're as strong as you say you are?
Or is it you're just an attention seeking person?
People who have worst situations then you are much better off then you are.
But who am I to judge?
Thing is,
Sometimes... People don't reflect.
I hope seeing this might help you have some clarity in thought.
That aside,
This guy is going to be my inspiration to keep moving forwards.
When times get bad I would think of him.
If I'm alive, I get to change my fate.

Although..I really kind of feel that this world, my generation in particular ...
We all have some kind of problems,
saying how imperfect we are,
cutting and all that?
We like to escape from our problems.
So it seems that many can't face it [plus most of the time the problem is caused by the decisions we make] and that's why we commit suicide and cut and all that to temporarily take our mind off things.
I get why we do it but its just not right to harm our body.
We only have one and we should really treasure it.
And being strong doesn't mean you have to tell the world about it.
I mean like who tells people that?
Getting over a breakup or rejection , yes I know how hard it is but life is moving with or without you. You need to get over it.
Don't regret missing something while wallowing in the past.
That is not what life is about.
Take a chance, LIVE.

Kinda abit off topic but who cares? This is my diary after all, my thoughts are mine alone.
You do not need to agree or disagree:)

Christmas !

2011-12-19T23:38:00.001+08:00

Haven't bought my gifts yet!!
*panics * ahhhhh
Working till Christmas eve n Tmr is my off day better shop or stuff Tmr like really Tmr!
Anyway had my nails done :D
love the Scorpio pattern sooo much !
Anyway have a Merry Christmas Everyone!!!:D

Work

2011-12-09T11:44:00.001+08:00

Been so busy lately! Working and doing Christmas cards in the sidelinesXD maybe I have found someone ? Here are some pictures :D
At least that I have in my iPhone (:

Oh and prom was great!!! Totally fun if ppl had joined in the dance and got high!XD got a mug as a present from the school(:

And I wore the yuki cosplayed as shown in the pics! Forced by Chloe an Melanie who is in the picture with mexD

Also went to Suntec city took some Christmas trees decoration and did some Xmas and NY wishes on that ball that is seen in many shopping malls!

So that's my update for now.. Will change my playlist soon:D

Movies

2011-11-12T23:47:00.001+08:00

You all should seriously watch Cinderella story series well so called "series"...
First :" A Cinderella Story " ft. Hilary Duff and Chad Michael Murray
This is a normal story(:
Second: "Another Cinderella Story 2" ft Selena Gomez
This is a dancing story(:(:
Thirdly( the latest one this year ): " A Cinderella Story: once upon a song "
And this is a singing storyXD freaking cool<3 the lead guys for all the shows are so freaking hot!!

Cinderella

2011-11-12T02:21:00.001+08:00

I wish I could be Cinderella..I don't know I don't wish to live?

Nothing

2011-11-11T18:43:00.001+08:00

I've....

2011-10-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

Been sitting here thinking what I bitch I used to be...
But then...I think again and realise I am still a bitch LOL.
Maybe I've become a tiny bit better[or maybe not..hahahaha]
Here's hoping;P

Besides the point,
I feel like I can't do this anymore..
I can't carry on! T_T

Sink me at the river, at dawn..

I wonder hows my life like to others and I really wonder what others think of me..
Maybe they correspond with mine thoughts about myself haha!

I bet no one checks blog nowadays as Tumblr & twitter has taken over ..
Its really convenient but still I don't need to know your freaking thoughts every second of the day or some status scolding someone..shouldn't you just tell them upfront? Misunderstandings solved be honest about your feelings and stop bitching behind others[me included XD]

Sometimes I wish I was never born.

Glad you came

2011-10-20T20:50:00.001+08:00

An extremely cute and soothing and upbeat song :D

Lalala

2011-10-11T22:27:00.001+08:00

Cool dubstepp :)

I..

2011-10-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

kinda suck. haha..

Nice song..
Just here to update alittle..

My life seems to have quieten,
I really hate noise now.
The silence is welcoming to me..
Embracing the darkness within...

Graciás

2011-09-28T17:48:00.002+08:00

Ain't that cool? I can type those kind of words with my keyboard :D
Like this:
á'bç'déíóúý :)

This song Rocks TTM ahhhh!!!

Just updating haha.
Kinda slacking now when I'm not supposed to.
Better start my work!

Good Dae to you peeps!

One Piece

2011-09-18T20:57:00.000+08:00

Talks about how friendship is important.
How as long as you have determination, you can move onwards and arrive at your destination.

It might be a funny japanese cartoon and full of action fighting scenes but it still brings out deep emotions from the heart.
One Piece is truly inspirational,
there should be more people like Luffy and his crew..
Loyalty and love comes together.
For people who are shallow,
you know you are and want to change..
Watch One Piece(:

Another tap tap song^^
Really catchy (:
It definitely got me addicted to its beats :D

Life might not go the way you want
but
Make the MOST of what it GIVES to you;)
Accept the challenges and don't whine so much.
you would live better(:

WTF AM I DOING?!

2011-09-14T20:56:00.003+08:00

Gonna keep going through, gotta keep my head up and don't drown!
I can do it!
I know I can:)
I MUST.

A dubstep of Eyes on Fire(:

Motivation

2011-09-12T22:04:00.004+08:00

I need to keep up this feeling, this thirst for knowledge!
I must persevere!
I must keep this up.
Or I will be condemned for life.

Never will anyone look down on me ever.

EVER(:

Once you say you’re going to settle for second, that’s what happens to you in life.
John F. Kennedy

SO NEVER say you want to be 2nd :D

Tomorrow,School Starts

2011-09-11T22:47:00.003+08:00

MEOW~

I feel really hyped about studying now,
Like really going into study mode (:
Maybe I should have done so earlier but I had my fill of fun...at least XD

Time to get down to business!
Start of New Term
Start of New Attitude
Start of revision!

Study smart, not study hard.

Gonna POWER study more & I hope that can be acquired.

I can't even wake up happy sometimes because there is a useless piece of shyt at home who just contributes to my bad mood everyday.

Hell whatever I'm gonna study and win that BITCH.
Just you wait.

Invisible

2011-09-09T17:20:00.001+08:00

Skylar Grey's NEW SONG! :)
Really nice to listen to.

Also the new tap tap song is epic :

Dubstep

2011-09-09T04:52:00.002+08:00

I finally see the whats the fuss over dubstep ^^
THEIR BASS IS EFFING AWESOME.LIKE REALLY AWESOME SHIT.

Try to tone down the music abit if u're scared u go deafXD

Teenage Dream

2011-09-06T23:21:00.002+08:00

I'm sure everyone is familiar with this song^^

You're my dream(:
And you're staying as that now...
Saddening for me but I will pull through.

I'm not going to be vulnerable anymore.
I'm just going to be my real true self, Ruthless I may be but I feel more comfortable this way.
I DGAF to what others think about me, never had never going to start.
as the popular saying goes:

I'm not here to please you(:

With this Old new me, I'm going to start my power study soon:)
SO BITCH JUST YOU WAIT;D

So far away..

2011-09-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

This song...is really nice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4y-RzVGrHg&ob=av2e
That's the link to the MV as they didn't allow me to share the awesome video for a reason I have no idea about:(

Music is like my life, without it..
I don't know how I can survive...
I don't know if I can maintain any of my poker face tactics or tone down my rage...

I do realise I am luckier than people who are in the 3rd world countries but I have experience things that most people do not in a normal life time.
I don't know to see it as a curse or blessing LOL.
Anyway whatever Life throws at me,
I try to make the best out of it.

Life isn't fair. Keep that in mind.

Lately there's been too much of this

2011-09-03T19:05:00.002+08:00

This song is really sad...The MV is really sad :(

Running Man IS really hilarious!
Should really watch itXD
You will definitely feel much better after watching the show XD
Its a Korean variety show if you're wondering :)

If I had any readers at all,
you would notice the change in my blogskin (:

I hope its okay although I just changed some colours and the picture at the top but still I felt I needed to change it.

A cute puffer fish XP

I don't see why there is a need to hate

2011-09-02T17:06:00.003+08:00

I don't know why so many people hate Justin Bieber.
He isn't arrogant or anything like that, why are people so against him?
He does sound like a girl but at least he has some kind of talent right?
At least he dares to pursue what he loves,
at least he got the courage to go after his dreams.
What about us?
I'm sure we have such big dreams too and we know how hard it is to accomplish,
why hate someone who shows such great determination?

I'm not a Bielieber nor am I a hater,
I'm just a neutral person who doesn't give a fuck.
I mean like when you listen to songs..
Do you listen because you like the artist or do you listen because its nice to listen to?
What is the world becoming ?
We stalk singers now,
we criticise them when we aren't much better ourselves,
when was the times where listening to music was just listening to music?
ITs either the song is good, suits your taste or it sucks and doesn't suit your taste.
The character of the singer affects nothing.

So just stop hating and just appreciate the damn song.

haha I miss this song~
The song that made him famous:)

Anyhow thats just what I think,
You're free to disagree although I know I've made some logical points.

What Makes You Beautiful

2011-08-25T21:02:00.003+08:00

It's a really nice song!!!!! :)
Lifts a persons spirit tremendously :D

Kinda relaxed and happy now that my prelims are over..
I get to slack!
For a little while more....
XD

I don't know if it actually helps but I start appreciating everything I have now..
I guess you did help me see things I've never been able to and I thank you for that.
I really did feel so although you doubt me countless of times.
Kinda sad actually :/
But anyway whats over is past,
so lets just forget the past and focus on the present :D!
Meow!
Kawaii~

I feel so excited nowadays. I must be crazy XD

Fixed

2011-08-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

I'm fixed.
At last,
no wonder I feel like I can't be human this few days...
No wonder I can't feel much this few days.
BUT now I'm whole again(:
More human like;D
Thanks Robert :)
I love you.

This is such a nice song :) Kinda different from the songs I recommended but I still like it ^^

Won't miss it

2011-08-17T23:29:00.003+08:00

GLEE IS NOW ON MY TOP LIST AND THE ONLY THING I WATCH ON TV ALTHOUGH ITS JUST MY 2ND EPISODE LOL!

Strong people,
admire them(:

I wonder if I could consider myself as strong,
Maybe? hah! lucky no one read blogs anymore XD
I'm safe to say things that people aren't mostly to read.
I tell myself to be strong everytime
to not cry but sometimes its so unbearable and I cut myself some slack saying it's okay to cry.
But you know what?
It has become something I can't do unless I watch shows that can make me touched but I can't cry for myself.
I would yawn endlessly.
Thats how freaking sad it is.
It gets pent up inside..

Accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair.

One very meaningful line from the song above.

I think I'm so inspired now so I'm gonna stay up all night to study for my exam tomorrow.

Computer computer computer

2011-08-17T14:51:00.002+08:00

My eyes get tired just looking at the screen for five minutes :(

DRAMA MAMA

2011-08-16T16:57:00.003+08:00

My life is soooo full of drama,
just ask anyone of my close friends and they can tell you just how dramatic it is.
Its like a show worth watching!

Did this simple photoshop on my own(:

Just some random stuff but really can you stand people who actually have the brains but just sit at home and waste away?
And not only that,
they are fucking noisy?
I wonder, if you can make yourself so useless why do you not make yourself useful working some decent income for the people whom you're suppose to be supporting?

I despise such people.

Sad existence they have, thinking the world just going to start raining money and someone is going to be at your back and call.

Enough with the negative stuff.

GOING TO NIGHT STUDY NOW UPDATES LATER XD

I love my cousins :)

2011-08-14T19:10:00.003+08:00

Do you all love your cousins?
I definitely love mine. :D
LOVE THEM TTM ;D

Yesterday I went to Causeway with them and got cousin rings LOL

Yeahhh soo XD

So I'm here now waiting for the pizza thats suppose to arrive in about 20 more mins
and also slacking :X
*whispers* I'm not suppose to be blogging! D: shhhh

I tend to eat more when its the examinations XD
I must be stressed LOL.

Here's a really nice song :) Altho I don't really listen to it.

If only I could link Tumblr to Blogger...

Lousy

2011-08-11T20:33:00.003+08:00

I feel my blog is a lousy piece of shit LOL.
People write meaningful stuff while I go on and on ranting about my feelings...
How seriously MESSED UP I AM!

Forgive me peeps D:
I'm so woefully ashamed of myself!
I promise to write better things in the future! :(

Here is a quote from ME:
Although they aren't real, Lies are words too.

Glee

2011-08-10T23:59:00.002+08:00

THIS EPIC SONG WON ME OVER.
EVERYONE I TELL YOU EVERYONE WHO LOVES MUSIC SHOULD DEFINITELY WATCH GLEE!!
THEY ROCK TO THE MAX I TELL YOU! BELIEVE ME!

soozz Sorry for not updating! Many things I've been through and didn't feel like blogging much~
But I'm back! :D [hopefully..]
Have a great night ahead!

I'm dangerous

2011-07-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

When I get really angry, I get violent.
DAMN.
Today those girls behind me,
Ruined my harry potter movie.
Fucking ruined it T_T
LAughed through out the entire fucking thing. LAUGHED can u believe it?
People were dying they laughed,
Neville's heroic moment and they laughed.
IS IT FUCKING FUNNY?
I don't think so in the slightest.

Harry Potter Fan

2011-07-18T21:17:00.003+08:00

I'm a FAN of HARRY POTTER,
THE BOOKS,
THE MOVIES.
YES I HAVE THEM.
Altho if I had a little bit of $$ more, I would so get all of them and go to the premieres :(

IF I DON'T WATCH HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HOLLOWS PART 2 MY LIFE WOULD BE FOR NUT' MAN.

THIS IS A MOVIE I WILL NEVER MISS EVEN IF I HAVE FREAKING O'S THIS YEAR.
NEVER.
I WILL WATCH THIS :D

Home

2011-07-10T16:41:00.003+08:00

I feel my home is a home no more.
I can't even say I like to go home anymore.
Every single thing irritates me to high degree and its small little things at that.
Fuck this shit.
Why are there always so much problems in my life?
I can't even rant my anger anywhere.

Stereo Heart

2011-07-06T20:43:00.002+08:00

Its a really nice song^^

Monday I went to Plaza Singapura,
IT WAS LIKE MY HEAVEN OMG.
They HAVE FREAKING KATANAS THERE!
And LOTS OF ANIME SHOPS.
I really like that shopping center man like seriously,
and they were this showcases for camera's that were design so...with so much small details.

I wanna work and shop till I drop there.
GAWD.

Why AIN'T I BLONDE?????????? T_T

I don't know if you're real but you are definitely my kind of fantasy~ :P

Love

2011-07-06T08:02:00.002+08:00

I'm completely, under you're power.
You have no idea,

I've been smitten completely by you.

I will SURVIVE

2011-06-25T18:29:00.002+08:00

I think I won't die :D
I've finally started on my homework & I think I can finish everything if I don't sleep tonight :D

This is a really nice song :D

Unfriend You

2011-06-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

Whatever~
I don't give a fuck about who doesn't like me,
if you're gonna come to me for help only,
I suggest that you should fuck off.
FUCK OFF!

I don't need people like you, or anyone else like that for that matter,
I deactivated my Facebook Account,
Sorry to those who were keeping up with me especially Akshay D:
Altho not as if people keep up with me on this blog either,
Well I don't give a shit.

Greyson is really talented, DEFINITELY (Y)
Listen to him, worth your time :)

Got to start my homework soon or I'll be dead when school reopens XD

How many times can I get in trouble?

2011-06-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

I'm in deep shit!

I've been enjoying my holidays thoroughly!

BUT

my homework has totally been neglected

SAD I'm now I'm left with a mountain left to clear D:

Just a little update,

Will update more tomorrow :)

Steamboat

2011-06-10T17:22:00.005+08:00

I went out with Erica, Jonathan, Jesslyn, Yi An, Allie, Lingshan & Shimin.
Had Mcdonald for lunch :D
Then went shopping~~
Went to More Than Words at Cinneleisure to get Teacher's Day Presents,
wanted to make the friendship necklace but that day the shop didn't open D:
Then we walked to Taka,
Jon,Yi An & me separated with the group cause I had to pass something to GANGYI[his memory card,which I had been holding on ever since last decXD] & the rest went to Far East:/
Too bad I didn't follow :(
Then after all that we went to eat at Steamboat :D:D:D
IT WAS SO FUN :)

Also I went to stay at my cousin's house on 4th-6th of June, Had alot of fun~~~~
I feel so lucky :)
My life is now so simple so balanced.
I wish I didn't complain so much :/
But well, if you were me I bet you'd complain more :P

Also the latest PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN ROCKS TTM!
I recommend you watch this movie!!!!!:)

Thats all for now:D

Today

2011-06-01T20:50:00.004+08:00

WAS PRETTY FUN.

Woke up at 10.30, bathed and blowed my hair dry and I slowly made my way to school for POA Supp :)

Waited for Erica outside school, could see the retard from far[even though I'm not wearing my specs.].

Ate Yoshinoya

Erica's and mine :D

The Creamy Milo. Had to add an extra dollar for this D:

Yesterdayyyy,

uhhhh I watch this Korean Drama:

Get Karl! Oh Soo Jung

Its a really nice drama and I recommend it :D

Also, I watched a Korean Movie:

200 Pounds Beauty

Really touching show ^^

CAn't wait for tomorrow!!!

Watching Pirates of the Caribbean with Jap,Jon,Kw,Qiru & ERICA :D

Thats all for today :D

I'm so tired

2011-05-30T19:09:00.001+08:00

Well after studying for the last two days. IT PAID OFF.

OMG MY BRAIN IS SERIOUSLY DAMAGED.

Gawdd... I feel so tired.....

Heres a song....

Tata~

Blogging

2011-05-28T16:39:00.002+08:00

I think I better start blogging again.

My English seems to be getting worst,

must be mixing with retards too much XD

Anyway,

I decided to give my all for this year,

I think I will be Facebook-ing less and also using the computer much less.

So I'll be only logging on to check my mail and updating this blog.

Today's post will mostly be about my feelings although most of the post already are :X

I can't stand the environment I'm in at home.

I used to look forward to it, but now?

NO. F-ing hell of a NO.

The close friend I used to have,is now an F-ing bitch.

This is fucked up,

but I still have my other friends with me and they give me great support I really appreciate them altho at times I can't stand them :)

I really wanna watch this movie!

Anw Adios!

SAdness

2011-05-11T13:45:00.003+08:00

Where's anyone when I need them?:(

Why couldn't anyone tell that I'm close to tears or feeling down?

BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS

2011-05-02T11:04:00.004+08:00

Why must you keep me awake!
omgomgomgomgomgomg.
If this goes on I don't know what to do!
The moment I wake, Your head floods into my mind and my heart gets OVERWHELM.
ahhhh gawd I hate this. :(
I just laid in bed trying to fall back asleep and there I was thinking about you for half an hour and in the end I'm forced out of my bed writing this shit. T_T
This seriously sucks.
Why must it be this way?
And I know I have no hope and yet I'm still here falling harder and harder for you.
It seems,
Fairytales do exist.
Just not for me.

I don't care what people say,
but I'm not going to do anything your not comfortable with.
I will NOT do anything since I obviously have no hope :/

Btw peeps,
The playlist is consisted mostly of Dream High's Songs :)
You all should seriously go watch the show.

Off to watch Secret Garden now~ :D

Memories

2011-05-01T16:54:00.001+08:00

I seem to be a much happier person last time.
I miss that person.
I wanna change.
For the better.
& this time.

I WILL.

No shit

2011-05-01T16:29:00.002+08:00

I think I better buck up.
& I totally give up.
On myself...

Maybe you're right.
Maybe I can't listen and really in my own world,
you really can bring down my own self confidence.
When all high you drag me down with such force that you leave so helpless.
So freaking helpless.
I don't know what to do with you.
You mess me up whenever I find the will to get myself together.
you leave me in such a terrible state.
You know the right words to make me cry. Congratulations!
Its not an easy feat for me to do that ,
When I finally master up my courage to tell you how I actually feel and think you tell me I always tell you the same thing.
I'm cool, its okay. I don't wanna tell you anymore.
I open up the wounds and you stab me with a knife to make it worst.

You know what?
Ranting out my feelings on a blog is much better then having someone respond.
I don't need someone who actually condemns me for my thinking.
At least the blog lets me relieve some kind of stress and not tell me off.

New blogskin again.
New sets of songs.
I give up on facebooking.
It just makes me sad to go there.

Feelings

2011-04-15T22:16:00.001+08:00

This emotions.
Will be sealed up and away.
I will never touch the sealed anymore.

Now how?

2011-03-27T16:11:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to do anymore...

Its Been So Long

2011-03-17T19:10:00.005+08:00

Well for one thing.
Many things have changed ever since me last post.

I made some decisions.
Stressed over test.
HAd fun out.

All in all,
I hope my life will stay like this or get better.

Feelings

2011-02-23T23:27:00.001+08:00

I know my blog is boring and its all about my feelings but you know...
its the only place where I can write my feelings and not many know about them :)

Sometimes...I just can't say certain things.
Not even to my closest best-est friends :/
I dont know what to do :(

Valentines Day

2011-02-13T18:15:00.000+08:00

Sorry to disappoint you guys but this blog is NOT DEAD YET :D

I love this Chinese NEw Year :)
2nd day people came to steamboat like my cousins, my sisters friends and Erica :D:D:D
My 2nd sis friends were entertaining like Geric and Terence.
3rd day of new year I went to Universal Studios.
IT totally rocks!
But this time I went it was special. :)
It stayed open till 9.30 and there were fireworks atuned with the music.
IT WAS SO COOL!
Loved it:)

Tomorrow is valentines day,
and yet again here I'm setting myself for up for disappointment.
Wish me luck people.
I don't want to be sad again :)

Quote:
Do not be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experience.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Gather

2011-01-24T19:00:00.004+08:00

My adorable hamster^^

Saturday had a reunion dinner.
As usual it was fun:)
My uncles[fathers side] act like retards so my do granddadXD
Guess it runs in the genes even my aunt[fathers side] acts like a kiddo.

Sometimes,
Life is just so hard...
I don't really know what to do.
To hang on or let go...

Quote:
Remember your goal is greater than your struggle.

I wanna know you,
Hug you & Neva eva let go :)

Circles

2011-01-21T16:16:00.002+08:00

AND THE CYCLE REPEATS.....
I'm starting to feel I will never break away from the pattern.
No matter what I do.
I CAN'T FORGET HIM!
And its been like pretty long ....

WHAT TO DO??!?!
It seriously sucks.
GAwd....
Its definitely more then a crush but is it love?
That I don't know..and if I don't know I doubt no one else knows[but erica reckons she knowsXD]
I don't know what to do.

If I make a move and you do nothing.What the hell am I suppose to be doing more?
I don't know what else I'm suppose to do.
Not a word. No hints.
How do I solve the riddle like this?
If you rejecting me please reject me outright, at least I know what to do and not stay up all night thinking whether this means what that means what.
ITs pretty fustrating sometimes...
And if your trying to get my attention.
ITs not WORKING. Your breaking my heart instead.
Its all pretty extreme. OR maybe I'm self deluding again.
If I am, please slap me awake. Some help would be appreciated.
Why do I feel sad instead of angry?
It doesn't seem to make sense....

Anyway gonna read a book now...

P.S. Any bad comments ain't welcome on my tagbox if you think i deserve it please tell it to my face thanks.
if you think telling it to my face is too hard then shut the FUCK up. Keep your snide comments to yourself if you don't even have the guts to tell me FREAKING COWARD.
Lets better agree on that for you and for me its for the best:)

Sometimes

2011-01-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

I wish that I can sleep my troubles away...
I wish it wasn't so complicated...
I wish I was good enough...
I wish I'm good enough for my own self worth...which I think I do not have...

I knew it

2011-01-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

IT was too good to be true anw.
For now I better concentrate on my studies.

Quote:
I have often regretted my speech, never my silence.

Have a Great night everyone..

Sick

2011-01-05T19:23:00.002+08:00

I'm sick! D:
In good and bad ways :|

My mouth is not agreeing with me on food :/
Sad face :(

nice song^^

Gawd...Studying exhaust me:/
Better go sleep

5th-Love ya

Today Is the day....

2011-01-04T06:34:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL STARTS D;

Yesterday was totally like the best day of my life :D:D:D:D:D
I can't expect today to be the same but at least let things be smooth:)

Okay Better go print my timetable now~

4th Day
I miss youD;

I'm So In LOVE.

2011-01-02T12:23:00.002+08:00

:)

And Its the first post of the NEw YEAR.
The Year 2011!
This is like seriously so cool?

But I'm not happy auughhhhhh!
I missed the damn timing 11:11 YESTERDAY!T_T

But one thing is,
I'm really glad that 2010 is over.
I don't really like what I did at the start,
I felt like a fool doing all those stuff.

I guess I know what my NY resolutions are:

1)To JIAYOU in my STUDIES!
2)To last as long as possible with him:)
3)Keep in contact with all my work friends :D
4)Try my best in everything I do!

Thats about all:)

Meaningful Quote:
When things go wrong - don't go wrong with them.

Nice song^^

Tch better get started n my newspaper clippings D;

Day 2

Countdown

2010-12-31T15:58:00.002+08:00

Today is the LAst day of 2010!:)

Tomorrow will be a NEWWWWWWWW YEAR for everyone!

I guess I don't really have a new year resolution except that maybe I must Gambette in my studiesXD

I WANNA GO SCAPE FOR COUNTDOWN T_T T_T T_T TSKKKKKKKKKKKK

Gonna sleep nowD;

Scape

2010-12-31T01:03:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY WENT TO SCAPE!
LIKE FINALLY!
ITS SO cool!!!!!!!
LIKE seriously.
I'm so gonna go there to hang out someday:)

Homework still not done.

And new year resolutions?
I will try making them in the morning:)
Key word: TRY XD

Have a nice day everyone!
Today is the last day of 2010!
Make a full use of the year before IT ENDS!:)

TRON LEGACY

2010-12-28T22:11:00.004+08:00

OMG MAN TELL YOU
TRON LEGACY TOTALLY ROCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
FREAKING COOL MAN!
FREAKING COOL!
SERIOUSLY I SUGGEST FOR PPL TO WATCH IN 3D!
CAUSE I DIDN'T D:

plus I bought school stuff:)
But hw haven't started yet :(

ANW its been a while since I posted quotes so here goes:
If you're not afraid to face the music you may some day lead the band.

Yea so have a great night everyone:D:D:D:D
RMB to love yourself!

Working Totally ROCKS

2010-12-27T13:25:00.005+08:00

IF your working with the right people that is:)

Working at Expo was the greatest and happiest times in my life!
Never been more happy or had so much fun before.
Plus you know what?
People don't judge me there.
They are all REALLY nice :D

Altho packing the stuff was quite tiring but it was super fun especially with Chloe coming over to slack!XD
Than Wei Sheng[who was working with me] made me do some sales on the r/c cars.
I was super hesitant at first but after awhile it was pretty fun:)
The counter beside us was where Jian Quan[the blur block/serious face] was workingXD
And also Clinton[The Joker/小姐] which was also beside us was working.
Ppl love playing our R/c carsXD
So many ppl from other counters always gather around us:):)
Thats how I met Yong kin,Gang Yi,Ahmad,Arafat and a few others who can't rmb the name.
Plus also the chocolate guyXD
I seriously loved it there:D
Some peek-tures!:
Ahmad & Arafat

I dk why this just looks damn funnyXD
Chloe & WeiSheng

Jian Quan, ME, Chloe & Wei Sheng

Chloe, me, WeishengXD

Weisheng & me

Jian Quan holding that for quite long.dk why alsoXD

Ahmad always looks like his on the verge of laughterXD

We were packing the uhh....whats it called again?Than chloe took a picture of usXD

ME n Arafat a.k.a PRINCE

CHLOE & ME

Ahmad wearing geek specsXD

Chloe holding the bear!CUTE RIGHT!;D

Chloe playing with my camera

Erica has bad taking skills but she wanted to capture my retardedness so tada~Me holding a winnie the poohXD[taken at taka]

Sadly I didn't take the time when I was working at taka.
But meeting Jeremy Seow,Jothem,Max,Sean,Shawn,Azhar.ShiJia,Fang Yi,Samuel,Jeremy Sim and many more^^

I love working^.^

So totally useless

2010-12-03T02:03:00.003+08:00

Job experience is kind of cool in a way.
I've learnt to appreciate things better now^^

I'm so in love with BLEACH now^^

I'm Feeling Lucky

2010-11-24T22:35:00.003+08:00

Superb Song^^

Nice quote:
Self-pity is easily the most destructive of the nonpharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure and separates the victim from reality.
-John W. Gardner

My life has been pretty boring lately.
Well its always boringXD
Anw uhhhhhhh I forgot what I wanted to write....
OHYA
The Legend Of the Guardians was SUPER COOL^.^
And still loving One Piece as always~
&&&& I cleaned the hamster cage.
Like Finally.XD

Tch...I'm bored....
& I can't wait to watch Harry Potter And The Deathly Hollows.
DYING to watch.
But my frenz have yet to comfirm with me!:(

Have A Great Night Everybody:D:D:D

Determination

2010-11-20T21:37:00.003+08:00

I knew it.I stopped play Maple.LOL.
My determination level seems to last only for a few weeksXD
Guess I don't have much determination:P

I LOVE ONE PIECE!

Nice song^^

Quote:
What I do today is important because I am paying a day of my life for it. What I accomplish must be worthwhile because the price is high. -Anonymous

Also,
Why some people who are so son of a bitch ass but get what they want and all?
Whats wrong with karma?
What happened to what goes around comes around?
I SERIOUSLY don't see it happening.
I Just want to curl up into a ball and just die in one corner-.-
This seriously sucks.
I know I rant alot but hey.
I'm still a teenager~
DAMN DAMN DAMN!
Fuming mad.TSK TSK TSK.
GFYAD Totally. Nobody would care.
Irritated~

Yosh

2010-11-19T21:46:00.004+08:00

Watching One Piece never fail to cheer me up:D:D:D

Reminds me of Robin^^

Quote:
Devils can be driven out of the heart by the touch of hand on hand, or mouth on mouth.
-Tennessee Williams

Which mean LOVE!
hahaXD

Very Nice Song^^

Thats all for today~
Have a nice night and sweeeeeeeet dreams:)
Remember, Life is very precious and don't commit suicide.
There will be someone who will definitely suffer if you died^.^
So don't put them through this kind of pain:)
Altho in my case its differentXD

Inspirational post

2010-11-18T19:41:00.008+08:00

I'm TOTALLY BAck![just ignore the pictureXP]
I think~haha

Anw my life is reaaaaaaaaaaally boring so I'll try my best to post the good stuff yea know?
Goodbye loser me~
Thanks to a certain someone,
I value myself much MUCH more:D:D
THANK YOU DAN DAN!♥

Heres a link of meaningful quotations:
http://www.amk.ca/quotations/quotations.txt

Really happy^^
My 2nd sister just came back from Taiwan and presents were brought back with her:D:D:D:D:D
I got someeee real cute ones:)

Heres one quote I find super meaingful:
There is no greater sorrow than to recall a time of happiness in misery. -Dante

I used to do thatXD
Thats why I became such a loser=X
But I'm not anymore!yeahoo!
So peeps,
Be sure some reality check sometimes.
Reflect everyday:)

SMILE XD

I MUST SHARE THIS.

2010-11-17T16:15:00.000+08:00

http://www.globalone.tv/profiles/blogs/how-to-treat-others-5-lessons

Five Lessons About How To Treat People
-- Author Unknown

1. First Important Lesson - "Know The Cleaning Lady"

During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions, until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"

Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade.

"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello."

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

2. Second Important Lesson - "Pickup In The Rain"

One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.

A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab.

She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home.

A special note was attached. It read: "Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away. God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."

Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3. Third Important Lesson - "Remember Those Who Serve"

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10 year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him. "How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. "50¢," replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled his hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it.

"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient. "35¢!" she brusquely replied.

The little boy again counted his coins. "I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left.

When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4. Fourth Important Lesson - "The Obstacles In Our Path"

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand - "Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition."

5. Fifth Important Lesson - "Giving When It Counts"

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare and serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year-old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister. I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes, I'll do it if it will save her."

As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheeks. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away?".

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

Courtesy of INSPIRE21

Hehex

2010-11-16T14:48:00.002+08:00

Guess I won't change my blogskin after allXD
I kind of love it<3

Some dream quotes:

Judge of your natural character by what you do in your dreams.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Myths are public dreams, dreams are private myths.
Joseph Campbell

Doing all this craziness,
I find I've lost touch with myself.
And this hols is the days I will find myself again:)

Smile people

Steamboat

2010-11-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

Today went out with Erica,Shimin,Jesslyn & Jonathan to eat steamboat^.^
Had fun and had my fill!^^

Bus 3rd

2010-11-11T19:09:00.002+08:00

Ahhh the fond memories of primary school students tricking each other into saying a foul word~
XD

Have you ever seen someone being degraded right before your very eyes?
Americans I think they have this most of the time.
And I can empathise with them.
One day I'm gonna explode and its not going to be pretty mind you.
I'm not going to take any more of your fucking nonsense and your foul mouth.
JUST get the fuck out of my life already.
I wouldn't care,
even if you were begging for money on the streets:D

I can't say much or else ppl can guess who the hell I'm talking about.
FREAKING BASTARD.

Anw,
Unhappiness away~
Heres some hot guy playing the violin
Total pro

Truthfully

2010-11-07T16:46:00.003+08:00

I had enough of this.
I had enough of doing this and that.
I had enough of people who act like their friends but they aren't.
I had enough of putting in effort to care.
REALLY I HAD ENOUGH.

FUCK THIS WORLD MAN.
I SEE NO JOY IN THIS WORLD.
I REALLY CANNOT APPRECIATE IT.
WHATS WITH ALL THE BACKSTABBINGS AND IGNORINGS?
IS IT REALLY ALL THAT FUN?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD?
WHY CAN'T EVERYONE BE TRUE WITH THEIR FEELINGS?

PLEASE DON'T CLAIM TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME IF YOU DO NOT INTEND TO FULFILL SUCH A DUTY WHICH YOU OBVIOUSLY DON'T THINK MUCH OF.
I WILL CHANGE.
I'M DEFINITELY GOING TO CHANGE.
TO MY FORMER SELF.
I wish I didn't tear down that wall.
And now I will have to waste time building it up again.
I give up kay?
I give up on loving.
Yea people who knows what the fuck I'm talking about and who I'm talking about you can pass him the message.No problem.
And I sincerely thank you for it.

I'm changing my blogskin.
Any stupid shit comments will no longer be tolerated.
Be prepared to get shot.
No mercy will be shown.
And guess what,
When I'm really angry, I do get violent after all.
A teacher helped me to realize that.
I do not claim to be a good person,
SO.DO NOT play with me.
I had enough of being 'kind' & 'dumb'.

This is not a rant.
Its a resolution.

Tired,

2010-11-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

Every time I come back from chingay,
I will definitely sleep for 4 hours.
But still feel sleepy although slept for so long.

Nice Song^.^

I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And I wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

I-I read your diary (Tino, d-d-d-diary)

I saw a book with lock and key right next to your name
I-I-I couldn't help myself 'cause things ain't just been the same (Uh-Oh)
Can you please tell me, 'cause this so insane
My heart is bleedin', paper cuts from readin' (readin')

Page 1
Says that your fallin' in and outta love
Page 2
Says all the things I do just ain't enough
Page 3
No I couldn't see
Page 3 says you don't know how to explain it to me

But I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And you wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

But I read your diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh Oh
Diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh oh oh

I turned the page and see a picture of you and him
Noo noo noo
That was the night you told me you where out with your friends
And now I know that my kiss was just a second

My heart is bleedin', paper cuts from readin' (from readin')

Page 4
Says your addicted to sexting him every night
Page 5
Has all the reason you know that this isn't right
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
Page 6
I can't handle this, I feel just like JT wanna cry me a river

'Cause I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And I wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

But I read your diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh Oh
Diary
Oh oh
Diary
Oh oh oh

Lets make a list
Broken promises
How you always told me you loved me right after every kiss
You always talked about all them other chicks
And now it's obvious that we know who the real b*tch is

B*tch is....B-B-B*tch is...B*tch

I-I-I-I read your diary d-d-d-diary

I read your diary
And it said
That you weren't in love with me (in love with me)
And you're leavin'
And you wished that I didn't see (I didn't see)
That you fell in love with him (him, him)

But I read your diary (ohoho)
Diary
Diary
I read your diary
D-d-d-diary

And an inspirational quote!

Clocks slay time... time is dead as long as it is being clicked off by little wheels; only when the clock stops does time come to life.
William Faulkner

Smile people!:D

Relief

2010-11-01T20:31:00.002+08:00

Luckily,
The fire doesn't burn so much.
I've manage to subdue it:)

I miss you,
dearly.
Guess I'm persistent huh?
Don't worry,
I hate myself for being so selfish
but I really can't help myself.
I'm really stubborn:P
I don't know if thats a good thing or bad thing for you.

Really,
I never really appreciate the people around me.
I've just been going on and on about how they don't care.
Some might be true.
But they aren't really my friends like this.
So I will definitely take more time to appreciate the ones that truly care.
Like Ding Heng, Erica, Jonathan, Yew Woon, Jesslyn, Allie, Japheth?, Lemuel, Yizhong, Shi Min, Fuming, Dan Dan?, Zenhoe, Chloe and a few others who I can't really remember.[4give me for I have stm]
I will work hard.

Totally distracted this term and this made me come to realise how foolish I AM.
Doing fool hearty things that doesn't help me in the least.
Even when such efforts were put in,
No results were produced,
Haha see where it got me?
This pathetic state I am in:/

This post is totally boring and is just all about my feelings.
Any bad comments please,
I said Please, Tell it to my face and don't use some stupid name and don't own up to it[unless its ur own:)] and make pointless quarrels in my tagbox:D

Seriously

2010-10-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

May I know who was the person who tried to use Erica's name but failed?
Please own up.
Dying of curiosity here.

Anyway,I'll miss school:(
Will miss seeing my friends and having lessons

If you want to be found stand where the seeker seeks.
Sidney Lanier

That's about all I guess...Don't really feel like posting.

Good Night peeps.
Hope you all have a nice holiday[=

Seventeen

2010-10-25T16:04:00.004+08:00

I think I will change my blogskin soon.
When I find the determination and design:D
Which I hope is soonXD

OHyea I remembered what I wanted to post the previous time.
I'm back to playing maple!^.^
But Alas the level for my all my characters will never be more than 50.
MY determination doesn't last so longXD [kakas]

Totally in love with One Piece all over again!:D

Did I say that before?
ahh~ who cares?XD

This song IS ROCKS WORTH MAN.
I'm sure you all will fall in love with it~ :D:D:D

Heres something inspirational:
Hell is full of musical amateurs.
George Bernard Shaw

Lyrics for the song above:
(Female Voice)
Par-par-par...par-par-party rock L-M-F-A-O
Shake that (x2)
Move that
Shake that

(LMFAO)
We like to party rock and we came to lose control(Shake that)
Came to keep the party people dancin 'cause we (L-M-F-A-O)
Well I'm Redfoo and I'm Sky Blu and we brought some friends along (Shake that)
Young Boss, Kevin Rudolf, and Pitbull, they gon' help you sing this song.

(Kevin Rudolf)
I love just who you are,
I ain't gon' try to change ya.
You are a Shooting Star,
That's why you are my favorite.
(x4)

(Young Boss)
I caught her when she fell from heaven.
One to ten, baby girl's an eleven.
And I ain't tryin to spit no game,
But I'm tryin to figure out from where you came
Because a star like hers,
Man, it really occurs in a world like this,
Only way you ever meet a girl like this.
Get up in a spaceship and take that trip.
We kinda have a way with words.
We even start a convo to get at her.
Every other (shake that) becomes a blur.
Be my mistress, I'll be your sir.
I love her, the way she is,
the way she are, my shooting star.
And I pray that you never change. (Never ever change)
Just stay the same 'cause...

(Kevin Rudolf)
I love just who you are,
I ain't gon' try to change ya.
You are a shooting Star,
That's why you are my favorite.
(x2)

(Pitbull)
Woooooahhhhhh!

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/shooting-star-party-rock-remix-lyrics-lmfao.html ]

Look up in the sky.
It's a bird it's a plane.
Nah baby girl,
that's a shootin star with your name.
I ain't gonna lie,
I've told a lot of lies and played a lot of games
But with you it's not the same.
For you, Im'ma ride.
I want you by my side,
I feel like them ghetto boys. (She playin with my mind)
Im'ma tell you one more time. (She playin with my mind)
For you Im'ma grind.
You were there through the pain.
You stood right by me, thanks to you I survived.
I guess it's true what they say,
Love is blind.
We together til the day that we die.
Until death do us part.
Baby you my heart,
they can take all the houses and the cars.
But they'll never take my shooting star.

(Kevin Rudolf)
I love just who you are,
I ain't gon' try to change ya.
You are a shooting Star,
That's why you are my favorite.
(x2)

(Female Voice)
Shake that.
Move that.
(x2)
Shake that. (x2)
Move that.
Shake that.

(Kevin Rudolf)
I love just who you are,
I ain't gon' try to change ya.
You are a shooting Star,
That's why you are my favorite.
(x3)

I Really hope Your right:)
IF you are,
Though I'm not sure How I will react,
But its definitely all my fantasies come true.
I should be feeling happy but many things are holding me back
and uncertainty is one of them.
IT mostly shadows over everything tainted with doubt.
The signals you give out are quite obvious or maybe its not.
I definitely don't know.
I'm not dense quite the opposite but sometimes I'm really clueless :(
Just tell me straight on.
Don't lead me:/
For I don't know what to do or react:|
I love you.
I don't know how this got out of hand but this feelings went deeper than intended or anticipated.
I don't know whats gotten into me.
I feel so crazy.
Is this the way its suppose to feel?
I go crazy thinking about you every single day.[& night]
I really miss you.

WOOTSxD

2010-10-18T00:27:00.003+08:00

Meow!Kawaii!!!
YESH!
I finally found the determination to clean the hamster cage:)
WOOHOOO:D

I can't rmb what i wanted to post...
nvm...
heres a quote:
All the things one has forgotten scream for help in dreams.
Elias Canetti

So good night peeps.

GoodBye My Seniors?

2010-10-16T19:48:00.000+08:00

They are going to take their Os soon
Wish you all LUCK!:D

Esp Yizhong Daddy,Lemuel & Shemuel:)

Exams are OVER!
[Well that was 4 days ago but who cares?]
REJOICE:D:D:D
Altho when I get my results I will definitely cry my eyes outXD

Nice song^^
Hope You like it:)

Should I change my blogskin?
I have no idea what to change it to:/

To ppl who want to make shit comments:
Don't make shit comments if you want to read.
REMEMBER you wanted to read it.
You brought it upon yourselfXD
Beware for you've been warned
Or you'll be BANNED (=

I feel so clueless.
I don't know what to do.
I admit,I NEED SOME DIRECTIONS:(
Badly.
I really don't know who to turn to for help...
People who I seek advice from
Give me extremes
But I really can't blame them.
I'm useless and cowardly after all,
Who's to blame?
I wish someone can see through this facade.
Even Erica who knows me best don't know me 100%.
I guess I'm too hard to fathom?
I know I know
I have to do it myself *throws hands up into the air*

But I really DON't Freaking Know HOW.
Plus I'm Not even sure IF its really true.
I've learnt not to trust my instincts.
How many times I've been let down by trusting my instincts?
I don't think I can even count them with both my hands.
I wish I know how you really feel about me.
Sometimes I can't help but hate myself because of you.
I can't stop loving you.
I'm sorry.

By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.
Confucius

Hope that taught you something:)

Smile people:D
Smile from the bottom of your heart<3
Cause someone out there,.
Someone is falling in love with it.

Studyin

2010-10-03T03:20:00.003+08:00

Currently taken a break from studying.
Well sort of.
I feel pumped up from 1-6am
I HAVE no idea why.
So don't ask meXD

Nice song to recommend:D

hope you all like it:D

Good judgment comes from experience and experience comes from bad judgment.
Fred Brooks

So don't be afraid to make a decision.
JUST DO IT!
Take risks and enjoy life~
Or else we will never learn to let loose and live life.
Don't cower to a corner!:D

Missing you.

Really makes me wonder.

2010-09-30T19:40:00.002+08:00

I really wonder what you want to do sometimes...
Can I say I feel lost?
Your a huge distraction.
Totally.

AND I'm so gonna flunk my chinese.
Damn..
I'm so scared to fail.I don't wanna fail:/

Really,I think I've used up almost half of my lifetime courage to face you.
Erica thinks I should make a move again..

A nice random song:

Always remember that the future comes one day at a time.
Dean Acheson

Wish me luck yea?

Flash Beat

2010-09-27T19:47:00.002+08:00

Cool Game on FACEBOOK!:D:D

Anyway As Erica has said.Update at least monthly!
Instead maybe update weekly?

I Got a NEW keyboard!!!
As the other keyboard went out of batt cause its wireless
I had to use the on screen keyboard for 3 fucking days!
3 YOU KNOW?!?!?
Than Now the keyboard has a real cool light that you can on whenever you want.
But the problem is...The light just sort of went off at being on for 3 mins-.-
Retarded thing.
Than Got a new mouse too...they seem to be getting smaller and smaller...LOL

Sad to say now CDAC tuition has ended and I won't get to see the guys till next year unless we meet on the streets or someone offers to hang out.:(:(
Exams start this thurs...
HAIS man hais....

Okay now for the shit crap corner no bad comments.no one told ya to read!:D
Seriously, I don't know whats wrong with me...
I seem to forget how to sing and I can't drift off to sleep 5 mins after my head hits the pillow anymore....What has the world come to!?!?XD jkjk just my world.
Sorry as you can see currently zi bi-ing here cause no one can answer me anwXD
My thoughts can't seem to collect and I can't absorb any information into my brain anymore.
Like some mental blockage.
How I wish someone can fully empathise with me....
Its okay if no one understands me fully but sometimes its really a disadvantage.
I can't really voice out how I feel most of the time.
I wish I can express the rage,sadness and tiredness out at one go....

Okay enough with that shit
Now for something inspirational:

It isn't enough to talk about peace. One must believe in it. And it isn't enough to believe in it. One must work at it.
Eleanor Roosevelt

Okay?
Smile always people!Smile sincerely from the bottom of your heart.
There is always someone who will miss it.

Problems

2010-09-23T19:26:00.002+08:00

A smile is a smile.
But if people can't see that your smile is fake.
Than.
I can tell you this.
They don't understand you at all and aren't fit to be called your friends.
Why?
Cause they are too self absorbed.
They think only of themselves, They don't think about the consequences of certain things they do.

I mention this why?
Cause just cause.

Anger is one of the sinews of the soul.
Thomas Fuller

I Recommend Linkin Park latest album.
IT TOTALLY ROCKS MAN.

Share joy always.

Love ya peeps.Gtg for tuition now.

Worried

2010-09-19T16:17:00.003+08:00

God...OMG
I freaking forgot to bring my geo back!T_T
DAmn.
I think I'll fail tomorw's test. :/

Tomorrow,
I will change to a better me!:D:D
More positive,more quiet and as Erica suggests,
No more change of the damn voiceXD

I'm trying my best so everyone any stupid shit comments,
YOU WILL DIE(:

And here is some enlightenment!:

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

SMILE PEOPLE:D

I hope I will forget you
This feeling of being lost,empty & hopelessness.
I will never want to feel it again.
So I hope I really can say.
"That guy was a total waste of my time and I've long forgotten him and moved on:)"

School HAS OPENED

2010-09-13T00:22:00.004+08:00

A coffee I drank in Old Town[Malaysia]^^

Sadly school has started.
But alas, this kind of thing is something I can't escape from.
I have to put on my poker face tomorrow:|

Hope yea ppl had missed meXD
Cause I definitely missed blogging.
Guess I have to put in my effort into studying, else I would fret over many things:/
I worry alotXD

Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower.
Albert Camus

Good night everyone.
Smile always:)

Life Swap

2010-09-01T08:38:00.005+08:00

Given a chance to swap..
I won't swap my life with anyone:D

Anyway Today going to JB again(:

Who so loves believes the impossible.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Ohya.I got a new COMPUTER!
HAPPY manXD
But somehow it doesn't make me real happy.
What I need is something else...

Everyone have a FUN day today!

Worry

2010-08-28T14:54:00.004+08:00

How can I not worry?

Once his not there.
I couldn't concentrate.
My chest hurts so much.
It felt so empty.
So light headed.
SO DIZZY~

If this is what its like to be in love one sidedly
I wish I hadn't sign up..
I don't want to bug you.
How I wish I can hug you and never let go.
But I must never do it.
Never.

I think I'm seriously going bonkers.

Anyway

A man who won't die for something is not fit to live.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

And a totally random MV

Have a nice day~

What hurts?

2010-08-23T23:54:00.003+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

I watch you walk away every single day.Just like that.Out of my life.
Well damn hell..you weren't even in it.
I'm afraid to talk to you..not because I don't have the courage to..
but because I'm scared I'll make you unhappy or frustrated..
One day, if I don't have to go for that ugh.
I swear to God,
I don't care if I bug you anymore.
I will talk to you till you can't stand me.

I'm all words but no actionXD
I don't want to show...any sign of weakness..
How hard it is.
I hate how I'm so bloody freaking selfish
I wish I could care more.
I try my best but sometimes its really difficult cause no one knows how I'm really feeling.
Damn myself to the pits of hell.

Music can change the world because it can change people.
Bono

Music doesn't lie. If there is something to be changed in this world, then it can only happen through music.
Jimi Hendrix

So Good night and sweet dreams people:D
I hope the quotes inspired youXD

Teacher's day

2010-08-22T09:19:00.003+08:00

Doing cards for teachers is a Tiring And Gruesome process.

I don't wanna go for maths tuition~T_T

Going to Malaysia later
Hope I can get the things I want^^

The Earth is a Beautiful place.
Truly and Surely People must protect it.
Or my future job as a Photographer will be gone.[not relevant but yea]
Nature is a nice thing don' ya agree?

Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Joke

2010-08-21T15:23:00.002+08:00

Three Little Pigs

One day the first grade teacher was reading the story of the Three Little Pigs to her class. She came to the part of the story where the first pig was trying to accumulate the building materials for his home.

She read, "...And so the pig went up to the man with the wheelbarrow full of straw and said, "Pardon me sir, but may I have some of that straw to build my house?'" The teacher paused then asked the class, "And what do you think that man said?"

One little boy raised his hand and said, "I think he said, "'Holy Crow! A talking pig!'"

The teacher was unable to teach for the next 10 minutes.

Anyway tomorrow YOG Singapore playing against Haiti!
MUST SUPPORT:D:D:D

plus I also went for the Gymnastics YOG.
IT was damn bloody cool.
The judges damn chio well some.the ang mos at least.

Maybe...
How I wish..
that..
hais....
understands....
me...
no....

Should I numb myself even more than I should?

Fiction reveals truths that reality obscures.
Jessamyn West

Quotes

2010-08-18T21:07:00.001+08:00

To Laugh Often and Much Magnet

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"To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty;
To find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded. "

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do. "

~ Jack Kerouac

"Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory."

~ Betty Smith

You make me so hot,make me wanna drop...

2010-08-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

Hot-Avril Lavigne

You just get hotter every single second.

Why is that so?

I think I must be blind to be smitten by you.

Seriously...

I think there is something wrong with me..

This feeling is so...foreign...unexplainable..

It goes beyond the description of like..maybe love?

Nice song:D

The present is a point just passed.
David Russell

Have a Good night!:D

OMGOMGOMG

2010-08-03T20:54:00.003+08:00

This is damn cool.I CAN SEE SO CLEARLY:D:D:D:D

Anyway excited for tomorw..

can you believe that?

Excited for schXD

A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.
Charles Darwin

Smile people:D

I wish..

2010-08-01T13:38:00.002+08:00

I wish you would love me the way I love you.

I wish you could become my Edward...

But alas,Wishes don't come true.

By tomorw,

I will be a happier me.

Feelings surpressed:D

Happiness will be seen and felt(:

Zany

2010-08-01T13:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a great day!

Bought two OP shirts and the picture above is the milk pudding I ate at Ojisan[Ramen ramen?]

Anyway should I get a semi-pro camera or a new tv for the hall?

I think I shouldn't be so selfish huh?

Just a get a new tv to replace the one that is even older than meXD

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
Bertrand Russell

HahaXD

Anywayss

Enjoy The weekend ppl!

SMILE ALWAYS!:)

Funereal

2010-07-27T21:30:00.001+08:00

mournful; gloomy; dismal
Random titleXD

Anyway
Today Erica,Shi Min & Kenneth came over to do SLC.

Was quite fun.

Had some girl time while Kenneth was using the comXD

Dont really know what to post...

Who so loves believes the impossible.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning

I AGREE WITH THIS!

A song I wish I could dedicate to...

SMILE PEOPLE!

I want to talk to you..but how do I do that?

Finally

2010-07-26T18:39:00.002+08:00

AFTER A LONG LONG TIME.

^.^

So...I'm pretty exhausted but had a pretty fun time hosting the Vietnamese last week:D

Also the Hong Kong students:D

Anyway I FINALLY UPDATED MY BLOG AND SKIN!

DRAMATIC come back yea?

I made the picture above myself leh!

Not bad eh?

Cute?

Sadly thats not meXD

But her song is in the playlist.

One only tho. [Bump Bump-Boa ft. M-flo]

And another song that is not related to Panic! At The Disco is

This guys song.

Asher Book-Try

THE REST ARE:

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I will update tomorw^^

Remember to comment!

Smile peeps:)

Eclipse

2010-07-05T19:59:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
I WENT TO WATCH ECLIPSE!!!
ITS DAMN NICE!
TOTALLY RECOMMEND WATCHING IT.
Its really worth the money.REALLY.
I swear upon my life!!!!!
Plus I AM SO HAPPY I DRANK STARBUCKS TODAY!

Don't read if you don't wanna.
No shit comments thanks.
I guess I am just fucking up my own life?
Well it was always fucked up but I just made it worstXD
I thought it couldn't get any worst but I was wrong?
I am not self pitying.
Just thinking what the hell is really wrong with me.
If I lose him.Than
Hello Satan.I am here to meetcha.
Hope you have an extra room for me.
Cause I am here to stayXD

I honestly don't even know why I am so sad.
Maybe I am already losing him.
I guess I am.
I am such a fool.I really am.
Its really my loss.
I guess it doesn't affect him?
Yeap.
Definitely MY loss.
I really am stupid aren't I?
Can I just for a moment.
Just one.
Forget who I am?

Quotes:
It's just one of those days Where I just want to disappear, To get away from everything, Because I hate my life here. Dying seems less sad than having lived too little.

Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

And with that I end my caseXD
Soooo.........I need to use the toilet for small business now.
Bye people.
Enjoy life!